Space Royalty

I don't date

Can't understand 

Why do that with

Some random man?

If you can't tell

We're meant to be

Thank you, next

Get away from me 

I know you well

From other lives

From ancient times 

And other sides

Different planets

Galaxies

We're aliens

And starseeds

Heal the world

A better place

Like Bono and 

Like whatshisface

No new karma

No way, no thanks 

Connecting dots

In outer space

This princess seeks

Her royalty 

Come reunite

And rule with me

Suicidal Bath Water

Kitty cat

Don't play in that

It's suicidal bath water 

If only it

Absorbed this shit

I would have come out cleaner 

Forgive me I

Can't see the sky

If God is sending something 

I cannot hear 

Nor think too clear

It's just what's perfunctory 

Move mouth to eat

To swallow drink

Use legs to walk to bed with

Lay down and I

Hope that I'll die

Then this won't all start over

I'm Sorry

I woke wanting to say to you
Thank you for what we journeyed through
Release you energetically
From heart by pen, poetically 
I know I warned you way back when
As I'm required with each of them
That I would write about you to the world
It's just how I communicate
For lack of something intimate
Was cross-watching Aquarius
She said that I'm the piece of shit

That's not how I intended it

I have a Libra stellium

Translates to bipolar problem
Often think myself a victim
I wish for happiness for you

For peace and serenity too

You'll share that laugh and smile with one
Who's kind to you and to your son
I'll cut this cord and set you free
For we could just not make us be
But please, look at our time fondly

I will too

Ash Dance

I walk up to the corner market
Because I won't wear masks in Target
This white ash drifting all around
Is somewhat Edward Scissorhands
If Danny Elfman scored for me
How beautiful my life would be
I put my arms up like Ms. Ryder
Before I go and buy a lighter
Imagine this was Burton's world
If only I was Johnny's girl
But then again he couldn't hold her
Saddest end to movie ever

Synastry or Not

Push reset, recalibrate
Create from different colored space
See from separate point of view
Embark on journey without you
I simply do not have the time
To wait for masculine divine
Could get hit by a bus and die
Before he decides to come by
Fool card says take leap of faith
Does not say stay and stagnate
Fuck these 10 swords in my back
My rep as a huge sadsack
Manic depression, up and down
Back and forth and round and round
Motivated, fueled, inspired
Just as quickly hopeless, tired
I'll take my 2 cats to the ocean
Put these blueprints into motion
Leave behind me civil service
I have no choice now but to do this
Outside influence made me sick
Like learning my relationships
Were methods of control and punishment
Do not give me your opinions
Satan's serpents, helpers, minions
Turned your back on our synastry
None the less, I write my history

Leo Season

Today feels Armageddon-like
Ashes coat my car and bike
Smoke smell settles in my hair
Hazy orange colors the air
Flames jumping the freeways fast
Dead discolored yellow grass
Who set fire to planet Earth?
I thought I would get there first

Meh

I don't care who thinks I'm pretty

Smart, creative, funny, witty

Every night I fall asleep

Asking God to come get me

Look out my window wondering

Where I'm from, why did I leave

A host here for parasites 

Steal my essence, drain my life

Broken incandescent light

Doing just what others like

Sitting down and signing in

Report for duty, "no symptoms"

First half of Wizard of Oz

Missing meaning, purposes, cause

No insulation, exposed wiring

Forever pissed off, sad and crying 

Born this way and tired of trying 

Mostly Dead Musicians

Trent Reznor's head is like a hole
Layne Staley was down in one
Her name tattoos Jon Crosby's soul
Instant karma got John Lennon
Did Elliott really stab himself?
Did Kurt put that gun in his mouth?
I digress, this is not where I was going
I wonder, do you speculate
Compose, arrange, and dedicate
Lyrics and music to our memory
Is it true you never did love me?
This was all malefic shittery
You approached me just to put me in my place
Pay me back for previous wrongs
Lure me in with pretty songs
Place me in a box and throw away the key
How incredibly depressing
To think it was karmic lessons
Remember when you played All I Want?
I wanted that for us too
Was I mistaken thinking you
Were pure of heart, of mind, of soul
That we'd help each other grow
I guess so
Because now I walk the line alone

4th House Pisces

Why the hell did I eat that? 
It's just going to make me fat
Solar, sacral, or root trauma?
4th house Pisces substance drama?
I kicked my vodka addictions
Dabbled in the 12 traditions
Step aerobics every morning
Meditation shortly following
Set intentions at moon circles
Swear I'll conquer all these hurdles
Eschewed toxicity in men
Curbed compulsive spending, then
Replaced orange Fanta with water
Still with cheese and bread I falter
Pin bikinis in Ibiza
Yet next day I order pizza
I don't like this constant battle
Of with which I have been saddled
Asking who in Heaven listens 
Please assist with this affliction

Yo & Squeakers

I love you, Yo and Squeakers
You're my valentines with fuzz
You're the Junos to my Bleeker
Sherrif Woodys to my Buzz
Eat a metric ton of Meow Mix
Linger in the pan too much
And a little masochistic
When you're playing, but best buds
So absorbent when I'm crying
Always listen as I bitch
Aid with tarot cards and scrying
The familiars to my witch
We go back to ancient Egypt 
Keepers of the underworld
Mummies now in pharaoh's crypt
Today just pets and girl
You both protect me spiritually
Like a gargoyle on each side
Many thank yous for accompanying me
In every earthly life

Otherwordly Hello

Psychic dispatch operatress
Astral plane tiki bar waitress
Like Jupiter sent lightning down
Echo distracted Zeus with sound
An esoteric carrier pigeon
Supernatural slide in DM
Pegasus Pony Express
Loch Ness Monster UPS
Heart Shaped Box to radio
It's all I can do, Candy-o

Luciferian Summer

"That's cute that you're contributing,"
My neighbor to her boyfriend screams
The clink of an engagement ring hits porch
We're all on edge, it's so damn hot
One hundred plus all month of Aug
Our sun feels like an enemy sometimes
I stop the watering of lawn
It doesn't care, it's too far gone
Some days I don't think that I'm long behind
I go back in and take caffeine
So fucking sick of quarantine
A misnomer on purpose, we're not sick
These masks are Luciferian
The gov, Authoritarian
I just want in a grocery store for fruit
6 feet saps our humanity
Blocks energy and sanity
Come on, they banned singing in a church
They can't stop us from worshipping
From creating and flourishing
Nor can they remove love from our vocab
We're human beings
Soft squishy things
We're guided by the Godhead up above
So take our festivals and shows
Take restaurants and shops for clothes
Take our bodies, but you cannot have our souls

Heavily Edited

Heavily edited
Withdraw, retract, reverse
Infinitely debited
Conceal, redact, submerge
I chose to shut my chakras down
When the world went on offense
My smile became a perma-frown
In efforts at defense
I'm trying to let the light in now
I've been down so Goddamn long
I wish for you to show me how
I want to sing my song
I'm filling up a holey bucket
I'm tanning in the dark
I'm sleeping 'neath a wet blanket
I'm gunning it in park
I only speak now psychically
We conversate in dreams
Connecting telepathically
If our guides do deem
A muted Sagittarius
attempting to make fire
A bound and caged Aquarius
A Scorpio in mire
Please help me untie these knots
Remove these swords from me
Convert from bad to good these thoughts
Happy ever afterly

Remedial at Vegetables

Remedial at vegetables
Unfit to clean a house
Completely undomestical
I just don't know what to do with myself
There's only brush across the street
The occasional freight train
No one sees me dancing gothically
Through my dirty window pane
Trevor Something, something
He's my digital husband
We make vaporwave in his basement
Or so that's what I pretend
Doordashing Wienerschnitzel
The driver refers to me as dude
I wish I hadn't tipped his ass
That's hella fucking rude
This poem is not too thematic
I guess I apologize
Just feeling somewhat chromatic
Merely a day in the life
Now the sun descends again
What have I done this day?
Play make-believe and dwell within
My world's in retrograde

Cognitive Astrology

Sedated cow or psychosis
Insomnia v. hypnosis
Weep at work or sleep by 8:00
Medicate or stay awake
Who told me I shouldn't feel?
At what point did I cease to deal?
So some boyfriend went away
No one said that he would stay
Okay so I am OCD
Obsess, compulse, redo, repeat
The answer's not in Lexapro
Or so the last decade has shown
Perhaps I'm just from Mercury
This is all astrology
Stars and spirituality
Neptune skews reality
A misaligned chakra or 7
A torn aura open to Heaven
I'll patch it up with prayer and seeking
Searching, learning, hoping, dreaming
Paint new skies upon my ceiling
Write down words which lead to healing
Wake each morn and face the music
I have faith that I won't lose it

P & C

Patrick is Piscerian
C is a Cancer
Seaside sibling water signs
Generation Z undines
Electric fish illuminates
With lightning he communicates
Snow crab safe on nearby shores
Pinching, snapping, evermore
Neptune's trident stirring storms
Arrive at beach in Luna's arms
Waves dissolving in the sand
Sea creatures wash up on land
Though they've shed their scales and claws
The life aquatic sometimes calls
Walking Earth with briny powers
Taking 90 minute showers
Dreamy, tidal, sentimental
Atlanteans turned occidental
Ocean sprites now elementals
Terrestrials: please do be gentle

Uranus Trine Mars

A magician, a technician
'cause Uranus trines my Mars
A musician, a physician
of keyboards and of guitars
Wielding power, taking action
Manifesting from the stars
Wire, cable, periodic table
Plutonium, electric cars
Sparking, shocking, I'm unlocking
Who you are and what you do
I don't practice Santeria
Not to worry, no voodoo
Moving, touring, you're exploring
Corners of this universe
Mixing metals, pressing pedals
Creating rhythm, writing verse
I'm not patient, but persistent
Plugging in and turning on
Flipping switches, changing fuses
Casting light on what went wrong

Satan and Bad Aliens

Satan and bad aliens

Ruling Earth with iron fists

So annoying, life destroying

Why did I sign up for this?

Spiritual warfare, maybe

How it makes me miss the 80's 

What I wouldn't give

to be 0 through 9 again

Cabbage Patch Kids, Teddy Ruxpins

Popples, GloWorms and Van Halen

Mr. Rogers, Cyndi Lauper

This is Thriller, Get to the choppa!

Suppose evil was there too

in George Bush Sr. and crew

We live in a world we did not make

Nothing new under the sun

Until they take away our guns

Sew our mouths shut, Handmaid's Tale

Six feet under, see through the veil?

It's thinning out, you only have to look

Raise up your head, open your eyes

Tune your antennae to the skies

Ask for courage, ask for strength

Pray for knowledge, then give thanks

Take off your pants and jacket

Take your protein pills and helmet

Get up, stand up, for your rights

We can do this, we can take 'em

We're God's children, not forsaken

Grand Trine

Gorgeous soul in your expression

From inception through the womb 

Always honoring your fire sun 

Swimming with your water moon

What you speak is what you're thinking

What you do is what you want 

No perversion, no diversion 

Nothing underneath to haunt

Conceive and then construct things

Erect each vision one by one 

Music, lovers, Saturn's rings

Your work here is never done 

Ascend and heal and radiate 

From a spark, a thousand songs 

Smile and shift and cocreate 

You will right a million wrongs 

Your lasso circles all around 

It has caught me in your spell 

I know I'm not the only one 

And so it's just as well 

I watch you from the sidelines

In the thicket and the thorns

As you effortlessly easily 

Take this life by storm 

It's okay, I'm catching up 

I have a lot to learn

but I've left a light on for us 

Here within my heart, it burns

My Life

Toyota Camrys 

Full of families 

Driving down my street

Dads and toddlers

Moms and daughters

Walking by each eve

Pregnant ladies

Dogs and babies

Tricycles, grade school

Babysitting, blanket-knitting

Birthday parties by the pool

Me, I'm single

Eating Pringles

Watering my lawn

Nodding, smiling

All the while I

Wish I could play along

I should not covet

My life, I love it

Right? I ask myself

2 kitties, candles

Sundresses, sandals 

And yes, I have my health

Scorpion

You nasty fucking scorpion

You wicked fucking witch

Why the hell did you get married?

Why the fuck did you have kids?

You're mean, you sting, you've hidden things

You chose not to protect

To this day, you deny everything

to every single life you've wrecked

I wake up nights and hate you

because I cannot take control

You have burrowed in my psyche

You have warped my fucking soul

No prayer, nor pill, nor therapy

has done me any good 

I've accepted responsibility 

as best I fucking could

And yet here I am at 38 

awake at 2:00 AM

by a nightmare situation

playing out without an end

Fuck you and your abandonment 

Fuck you and your judgement

Fuck me and my decision

to perpetuate this long descent 

Worthless, wasted, languishing 

On autopilot at this point

Only counting down the hours

til I get to blow this joint

By this joint, I mean this planet 

on which I've failed to ascend

I never want to come back down here

Least of all with you again

Blue Jay

Blue Jay in the sky, on a wire, standing by

Were you sent here by a guy - 

remotely viewing through your eyes?

What is it that he has to say?

What is this missive you convey?

Were you sent from outer space?

Represent a martian race?

From the shores of Waikiki?

Do you have a lei for me?

Paris, France, bonjour, oui oui

Kawaii, Japan, Hello Kitty

Now we meet in this backyard

Virgos sent here from the stars

Gazing up and looking down

Message greeted with a frown

Understand you, I do not

Now it's hot and I'm distraught

Close my journal, pack it up

Back to day job, back to rut

Drop a feather as you go

I put it to my lips and blow

Close my eyes and make a wish

When you return, you take me with