Otherwordly Hello

Psychic dispatch operatress
Astral plane tiki bar waitress
Like Jupiter sent lightning down
Echo distracted Zeus with sound
An esoteric carrier pigeon
Supernatural slide in DM
Pegasus Pony Express
Loch Ness Monster UPS
Heart Shaped Box to radio
It's all I can do, Candy-o

Remedial at Vegetables

Remedial at vegetables
Unfit to clean a house
Completely undomestical
I just don't know what to do with myself
There's only brush across the street
The occasional freight train
No one sees me dancing gothically
Through my dirty window pane
Trevor Something, something
He's my digital husband
We make vaporwave in his basement
Or so that's what I pretend
Doordashing Wienerschnitzel
The driver refers to me as dude
I wish I hadn't tipped his ass
That's hella fucking rude
This poem is not too thematic
I guess I apologize
Just feeling somewhat chromatic
Merely a day in the life
Now the sun descends again
What have I done this day?
Play make-believe and dwell within
My world's in retrograde

Cognitive Astrology

Sedated cow or psychosis
Insomnia v. hypnosis
Weep at work or sleep by 8:00
Medicate or stay awake
Who told me I shouldn't feel?
At what point did I cease to deal?
So some boyfriend went away
No one said that he would stay
Okay so I am OCD
Obsess, compulse, redo, repeat
The answer's not in Lexapro
Or so the last decade has shown
Perhaps I'm just from Mercury
This is all astrology
Stars and spirituality
Neptune skews reality
A misaligned chakra or 7
A torn aura open to Heaven
I'll patch it up with prayer and seeking
Searching, learning, hoping, dreaming
Paint new skies upon my ceiling
Write down words which lead to healing
Wake each morn and face the music
I have faith that I won't lose it

Uranus Trine Mars

A magician, a technician
'cause Uranus trines my Mars
A musician, a physician
of keyboards and of guitars
Wielding power, taking action
Manifesting from the stars
Wire, cable, periodic table
Plutonium, electric cars
Sparking, shocking, I'm unlocking
Who you are and what you do
I don't practice Santeria
Not to worry, no voodoo
Moving, touring, you're exploring
Corners of this universe
Mixing metals, pressing pedals
Creating rhythm, writing verse
I'm not patient, but persistent
Plugging in and turning on
Flipping switches, changing fuses
Casting light on what went wrong

Grand Trine

Gorgeous soul in your expression

From inception through the womb 

Always honoring your fire sun 

Swimming with your water moon

What you speak is what you're thinking

What you do is what you want 

No perversion, no diversion 

Nothing underneath to haunt

Conceive and then construct things

Erect each vision one by one 

Music, lovers, Saturn's rings

Your work here is never done 

Ascend and heal and radiate 

From a spark, a thousand songs 

Smile and shift and cocreate 

You will right a million wrongs 

Your lasso circles all around 

It has caught me in your spell 

I know I'm not the only one 

And so it's just as well 

I watch you from the sidelines

In the thicket and the thorns

As you effortlessly easily 

Take this life by storm 

It's okay, I'm catching up 

I have a lot to learn

but I've left a light on for us 

Here within my heart, it burns

Blue Jay

Blue Jay in the sky, on a wire, standing by

Were you sent here by a guy - 

remotely viewing through your eyes?

What is it that he has to say?

What is this missive you convey?

Were you sent from outer space?

Represent a martian race?

From the shores of Waikiki?

Do you have a lei for me?

Paris, France, bonjour, oui oui

Kawaii, Japan, Hello Kitty

Now we meet in this backyard

Virgos sent here from the stars

Gazing up and looking down

Message greeted with a frown

Understand you, I do not

Now it's hot and I'm distraught

Close my journal, pack it up

Back to day job, back to rut

Drop a feather as you go

I put it to my lips and blow

Close my eyes and make a wish

When you return, you take me with

Jupiter

I was meant to have a daughter

She would be called Jupiter

But the sun's rescinding farther

And as it goes, its taking her

I still see her in the ether

And I hear her in the breeze

I can feel her in my heartspace

But in this life, I'm on my knees

I cry out to her, "I'm sorry,"

Apologize a thousand times

I am catatonic, paralyzed

Bereft of all but rhymes

I cannot move to make her

Cannot bring her to this sphere

Cannot rise to meet her father

Cannot seem to make him hear 

I pray to God each evening

From the shower, then my bed

Please release me from this movie

Looping always in my head

A Disney princess ending

Do I see inside my dreams

Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella

Amy Adams with Dempsey

Spanish Castle Magic

We dwell high up in the sky

We come down to visit mortals

Jupiter, and you, and I

I know that I agreed to this

I just need strength to see

All I drew up in the heavens...

Can you help me make it be?

Electronic Waste

Ashamed in advance 
For what I might do
To gain your affection
For you to approve
You're chatting with me
And I'm falling in love
I feel a connection
You're sent from above
But that's not the case
It isn't the truth
You're here to exploit me
I'm here to be used
I see the blue ring
Of my webcam light up
I tell you hello
But you say hurry up
Say that you love me
Say that we'll meet
Say that you'll drive here
Or buy a plane seat 
Your wife's in the next room
Your kids are asleep
I feel like a whore
And you're just a creep
I'm electronic waste
Hard drive can't be found
Press escape to restart
But I just spin around
I'm only an android
About to expire
Like tears in the rain
Like flames in a fire
A 404 error
I'm seized by the Feds
I'm discolored and rusted
And laced with cobwebs
But one day you find me
And you dust me off
And you go to kiss me
And feel such a shock
Because I have a heartbeat
And I am not dead
A current runs through me
Despite what I said
Because I am a human
A real live girl
And since you can't see this
You must leave my world

North Node

Multifacet, glittering

Lacerations and lightning

Muddy water, lotus flower

Muted, waning, rebirth, power

North Node Cancer, turning point

Fire sign rising, crown, anoint

Sun, High Priestess, Empress card

Lioness and lionheart

Isis goddess, Egyptian

Sekhmet warrior, prediction

10 of Cups with Sun and Moon

Growing, healing, family soon

Libra Stellium

Sad dejected, alien

Phosphorescent, born again

Sunglight sitting, only friend

Moods change colors with the wind

Endless nameless, fantasy

Rabbit, top hat, call to me

Weighted down and then set free

Reoccur, repeatedly

Fire and wonder, hope in heart

Collapsing scaffold, aborted start

Forward, backward, light to dark

3rd gear, 2nd, neutral, park

Midsummer

Peonies, plumeria, gardenias, floral

Seaweed, crustacean, siren on coral

Sunrise and sunset, and campfire burning

Mountain top, forest floor, volcano churning

Hummingbird, bumblebee, dragonfly, feather

Asteroid, shooting star, nebulae, weather

Helios, Eros, Persephone, Rhea

Lono and Laka, Kapo and Haumea

Good morning, good fortune, good luck, and good lovin

See you on the astral plane until I hear something

7 Chakras

Purple thistle, fairy hatch

Lady bug and pumpkin patch

Lilith waiting, listening

Hovering and wish granting

Planting seedlings underneath

A promise I intend to keep

Across the stars, around this earth

Within the breeze and in the hearth

See with third eye, know through crown

Speak with throat to bring you round

Solar, sacral, root, and heart

Together, be it far apart

Major Arcana

In my dreams, you come to me

You say hello, then sing so sweet

Your are eyes are ethereal, sparkling

Your smile like sunshine, welcoming

Your heart sings too, it burns so bright

You shine and shimmer in your light

Emperor and his empress

Strength and Star and Temperance

I ask my angels to come through

And put me on the path toward you

Cocreate

Free in water and on land
Free on grass and in the sand
Express, explore, experiment
Create, combine, and compliment
So beautiful in skin and soul
So magical, please help me grow
...Say hello

Ode to Oleg

Working on self improvement

But it's boring as feck

Sitting on my porch

Wondering what in the heck

How do I meet men?

How would I meet women?

How can I meet anyone?

Alien or human

I opened up Tinder

And accidentally swiped right

On about 10K douches

Oh damn it, oh shite

Wearing 10 gallon hats

And listening to new country

Sending me hearts

And asking me to lunchy

My eyes roll to the heavens

I hit uninstall

I remember my first date

At the old Birdcage Mall

He was Andrew Olson

He wore a black coat

He was likely on that list

Of Columbine folk

Then I started thinking

Of all of the others

My internet boyfriends

And IRL lovers

Oleg was from Livejournal

He chose Jovana though

Now she and I are friends

And agree he is an ohole

There was Matt from Toronto

Andy from MN

The cokehead from goth club

Oh so many men

Yes I've traveled the globe

And mobbed across country

On buses and trains

On planes and via donkey

Perhaps they were lessons

For which I could be grateful

No need to be hostile

Or bitter or hateful

Now I've learned love does not

Come from dudes or from gambling

Or shopping or drinking

Or online webcamming

I'm still working it out

I'm still finding my way

But I'm starting to think

that I have things to convey

I'll start out by sharing

With my friends on Facebook

And then when I'm ready

I'll be writing my book