Monday, July 27, 2020

Electronic Waste

Ashamed in advance 
For what I might do
To gain your affection
For you to approve
You're chatting with me
And I'm falling in love
I feel a connection
You're sent from above
But that's not the case
It isn't the truth
You're here to exploit me
I'm here to be used
I see the blue ring
Of my webcam light up
I tell you hello
But you say hurry up
Say that you love me
Say that we'll meet
Say that you'll drive here
Or buy a plane seat 
Your wife's in the next room
Your kids are asleep
I feel like a whore
And you're just a creep
I'm electronic waste
Hard drive can't be found
Press escape to restart
But I just spin around
I'm only an android
About to expire
Like tears in the rain
Like flames in a fire
A 404 error
I'm seized by the Feds
I'm discolored and rusted
And laced with cobwebs
But one day you find me
And you dust me off
And you go to kiss me
And feel such a shock
Because I have a heartbeat
And I am not dead
A current runs through me
Despite what I said
Because I am a human
A real live girl
And since you can't see this
You must leave my world

Saturday, July 25, 2020

North Node

Multifacet, glittering
Lacerations and lightning
Muddy water, lotus flower
Muted, waning, rebirth, power
North Node Cancer, turning point
Fire sign rising, crown, anoint
Sun, High Priestess, Empress card
Lioness and lionheart
Isis goddess, Egyptian
Sekhmet warrior, prediction
10 of Cups with Sun and Moon
Growing, healing, family soon

Libra Stellium

Sad dejected, alien
Phosphorescent, born again
Sunglight sitting, only friend
Moods change colors with the wind
Endless nameless, fantasy
Rabbit, top hat, call to me
Weighted down and then set free
Reoccur, repeatedly
Fire and wonder, hope in heart
Collapsing scaffold, aborted start
Forward, backward, light to dark
3rd gear, 2nd, neutral, park


Peonies, plumeria, gardenias, floral
Seaweed, crustacean, siren on coral
Sunrise and sunset, and campfire burning
Mountain top, forest floor, volcano churning
Hummingbird, bumblebee, dragonfly, feather
Asteroid, shooting star, nebulae, weather
Helios, Eros, Persephone, Rhea
Lono and Laka, Kapo and Haumea
Good morning, good fortune, good luck, and good lovin
See you on the astral plane until I hear something

7 Chakras

Purple thistle, fairy hatch
Lady bug and pumpkin patch
Lilith waiting, listening
Hovering and wish granting
Planting seedlings underneath
A promise I intend to keep
Across the stars, around this earth
Within the breeze and in the hearth
See with third eye, know through crown
Speak with throat to bring you round
Solar, sacral, root, and heart
Together, be it far apart

Major Arcana

In my dreams, you come to me
You say hello, then sing so sweet
Your are eyes are ethereal, sparkling
Your smile like sunshine, welcoming
Your heart sings too, it burns so bright
You shine and shimmer in your light
Emperor and his empress
Strength and Star and Temperance
I ask my angels to come through
And put me on the path toward you


Free in water and on land
Free on grass and in the sand
Express, explore, experiment
Create, combine, and compliment
So beautiful in skin and soul
So magical, please help me grow
...Say hello

Ode to Oleg

Working on self improvement
But it's boring as feck
Sitting on my porch
Wondering what in the heck
How do I meet men?
How would I meet women?
How can I meet anyone?
Alien or human
I opened up Tinder
And accidentally swiped right
On about 10K douches
Oh damn it, oh shite
Wearing 10 gallon hats
And listening to new country
Sending me hearts
And asking me to lunchy
My eyes roll to the heavens
I hit uninstall
I remember my first date
At the old Birdcage Mall
He was Andrew Olson
He wore a black coat
He was likely on that list
Of Columbine folk
Then I started thinking
Of all of the others
My internet boyfriends
And IRL lovers
Oleg was from Livejournal
He chose Jovana though
Now she and I are friends
And agree he is an ohole
There was Matt from Toronto
Andy from MN
The cokehead from goth club
Oh so many men
Yes I've traveled the globe
And mobbed across country
On buses and trains
On planes and via donkey
Perhaps they were lessons
For which I could be grateful
No need to be hostile
Or bitter or hateful
Now I've learned love does not
Come from dudes or from gambling
Or shopping or drinking
Or online webcamming
I'm still working it out
I'm still finding my way
But I'm starting to think
that I have things to convey
I'll start out by sharing
With my friends on Facebook
And then when I'm ready
I'll be writing my book